journal forty-nine.

So he told you that you were pretty?

That, without you, life would be a little shitty?

All those sweet nothings made you feel aglow

So they cannot blame you that you did not know

That pretty is the equivalent of feeling fine

That pretty means nothing when he cannot say “mine”

In reference to you, but you didn’t see it

All your friends told you, but you didn’t believe it

And now you’re questioning what you two are

Day dreaming to the sky, asking the stars

For a future with this boy who can’t even love you

Well, not that he can’t, but that he won’t choose to

So you’re sitting here, second guessing your worth

Like you’re not the most gorgeous being to ever grace this earth

Like your person is not worth every single second of time

When really, he is just not your partner in crime

Because that guy? He’d know how to plan a heist

He’d be proactive, detailed, eager and comprised

Of intentional actions to make you feel

Like together, you two could close any deal

But this guy? He’s one for the masses

He would not serve as any kind of asset

Your repertoire is out of his price range

So please, take some time to sulk and then disengage

From this weight that is dragging you down

When you resurface, I’ll be patiently waiting around

With all your other friends because we love you so much

We’re just waiting for you to get back in touch

– This time, when I called, I left a voicemail

Published by Brittany Given

Raw and unadulterated — this is how I typically feel things. And when I feel these things I think I feel, I write. My little pieces of comprehension have taken the form of words jumbled together on your screen. A masterpiece? Probably not, but welcome to glimpses of this incredible life I get to experience. I do hope you’ll stick around.

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