people are not commodities
but you seem to think they’re one?
calling on me when it’s convenient
and a lack of effort when you’re done
you see, you can be hurt by ex-lovers
but what really takes the tea
is when people you’ve held close as friends
aren’t the type of friend you thought they’d be
pouring love into those relationships
keeping their person on your mind
feeling their pain when they are saddened
only to realize you weren’t worth their time
to see I was not thought of by you
you simply could not have been bothered
and any apology to your shortcomings
was not an apology you thought to offer
even when the hurt I felt was mentioned
and any remedies were given, too
and in response to those vulnerabilities
you still acted in ways that only benefitted you
I’ve felt heartbreak before
but only in the romantic sense
and it’s crazy to be so disappointed
by someone else, though, in my defense
I probably see the best in people too often
give too many second, third, tenth chances
but giving is a love language of mine
so silly me to not think of circumstances
where you would ever not act the same
but whoops because that mistreatment was repeated
it’s just, when I was growing up, we were taught
“treat people the way you want to be treated”
so when friends have shown me qualities
that I have appreciated dearly
I take it upon myself to repeat those back
because I want them to know I appreciate them, sincerely
but when I stopped initiating
stopped asking to hang out
I never heard a word from you and
I finally knew, without a doubt
that people are just going to have different values
and maybe ours just aren’t the same
it’s a shame letting go of a friendship
but, then again, friendship may not be the right name
brittany given. 